High School is a bit of a haze for me, but the Lord brought up a memory to give me discernment of what was going on and yet another thing to confess (another step closer to purity). Today I stopped to watch this video that my little sister was watching on Teen Nick, it was a clip of a Rave and many young men and women around my age dancing to this rave music. At my high school dances, we had many “rave” themed dances. And I remember learning how to dance to this type of music. It was exhausting! I may have danced to that type of rave music for maybe two or three school dances. I could remember how I felt liberated and free; almost unstoppable. After graduating high school, so many of my close friends would buy tickets to these tremendously large Rave concerts but I never had the chance to attend one. I thank God I never did. I would hear stories of people passing out on the floor, others getting high on ecstasy, and some people too drunk to even understand what’s going on. This may seem almost “normal” these days, or “normal” for a younger generation to go out in the world and feel free to experiment, because “Hey, we only live once”. But it is false.
It’s a false feeling of freedom on that dance floor. It’s a false feeling of liberation. It’s a false feeling of unstoppable. Because once you’re off that dance floor, out of that rave or out of that club, did you continue to sense the freedom? Or the liberation? I’m not sure about other people’s experiences but I would think no. Being able to escape from the world through these raves doesn’t solve anything and it doesn’t give you true joy; as well as a true feeling and knowledge of true significance.
All of this can relate to a song/sermon that I have heard from Beautiful Eulogy named “The String That Ties Us”.
“Lets suppose that a kite could come to life and develop its own personality. On one hand, it would feel the exhilaration that comes from the surges of wind that direct it through the sky. On the other hand, it would almost immediately take notice of something annoying. The tugging of the string at its center, a feeling of constraint, resistance, and soon the kite begins to think to itself ‘If only I could detach, then I could really fly.’ To the kite it seems the string is limiting its full experience of freedom. But as any boy or girl who has flown a kite knows, were that string to suddenly snap, the kite wouldn’t soar free for very long. It would dart to and fro for a minute, maybe two, but very soon thereafter it would end on the ground in a pile of broken sticks and torn paper never ever to fly again. Rather, you see, it is the taught line between the kite and the one holding it that enables the kite to fly, that allows all the principles of aerodynamics to come into play so that the kite might achieve its full purpose. Christian love performs the very same function as a kite string. You take away the stabilizing force of Christian love and every towering gift, every supernatural power, every sacrificial act, every musical performance, you name it friends, it will all-ALL end up on the ash heap of eternal insignificance, without love.”
When Gods Holy Spirit is looking through these raves and clubs, walking through, and observing, telling his beloved children “don’t take that drug”, “go home, don’t stay here”, “my love, what are you doing here”, it must be hard to see your children hurting themselves. It saddens God to see this; he yearns for his children to come back to him. His love is so deep and profound, it never stops. God weeps for his children but with even a deeper love than my parents or any parent will ever have.
“Don’t cause the Holy Spirit sorrow by the way you live. Remember, he is the one who marks you to be present on that day when salvation from sin will be complete” Ephesians 4:30.
Another point the Holy Spirit has given me through this memory, is that through this false liberation from dancing, that it is the complete opposite of God’s liberation. God wants to fulfill every one of his children to the point that they are not dancing for their own selfish pleasure, but for him. He wants to take every load of weight, sorrow, spirits of depression, spirits of self-hate, spirits of uselessness in self, and so many other things, to give you and me the freedom in God’s wholeness. God wants to flood his children in his holiness and make them complete. I have found that jumping up and down; dancing for God is quite a beautiful thing. Just yesterday I played the song “Come On” by Rend Collective Experiment on full blast and I was telling God, that “I let go” all the pain, sorrow, guilt, shame, and everything that is keeping me from having a more intimate relationship with God. I didn’t have to worry about anybody watching me or trying to please another person through their eyes, but only take in every inch of joy and freedom that God had given me. Doing this every now and then gives me more insight that God is pure and good. That dancing for the Lord is so much more fulfilling, satisfying and gives me the freedom that I have always been seeking. Plus, I’m not grieving the Lord by my actions, only pleasing him.
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